LonnieOlson

I know John is going to move to SC. I can't stop him. I hope he will be ok. I won't do anything mean to keep them apart, I can only give advice.

I admit I will kind of miss John. He pretty much is always there, If I am bored, need someone to talk to, or almost anything, he was there. Maybe not by choice, but he was there. I can't do the same thing w/ Casey. She still wants me, I can tell. If I had any interest in her, she would probably drop her b/f in a heartbeat. If I spend that much time w/ Casey, alone, not only would her b/f get jealous, but she will latch even harder on to me emotionally. I don't want that. I only want a friend to be around, not a girlfriend.

I can't move to April, that would be wierd for her. She is also way to busy to be able to just jump and go to a movie, etc. I have too big of a crush on Boyd. Well I don't know, he was a great friend in the past. He could be one again. But how do I ask. That would be strange. Hey long time no see, will you be my new best friend. I mean really, it would have to develop. I kind of feel like a 16yr old boy about him. I want to call him, but I don't want him to think to know I like him. In fact he is online right now, should I talk to him. How do I start? Ask him out on a date? I think not. How does that work? Should he be a new best friend, or a boyfriend? I don't know.

I am going to be really really bored this summer. Corianne is the only person that really could/wants to do anything w/ me. Should I seek a new friend while John is away? Clark, duh. oh wait, he only wants to go to titty bars, lame. Well maybe not. Everquest is really starting to bore me. I can't play that all summer. Too poor for constant movies. My bike sucks, I am turning into a wimp. Well I guess biking is all there really is to do. I will be by myself most of the time. Pretty sad really.